At last--I thought the Muse would never show up. I had forgotten how connected my body and mind can be, if I just allow things to happen naturally. With post-marathon details on the brain, sometimes having too much to write about can cause an impasse--where do I start?
Well, I decided on a cold run last week that I simply just needed to start. I let my mind go as my feet clipped through my Queens neighborhood dodging loose trash and empty garbage cans rolling in the wind. I was thinking about how my legs felt like they were going too fast for my body, and after awhile of debating whether or not that was a good thing, it seemed as though my mind started to follow suit. My brain has been working overtime ever since.
When I started this blog, I envisioned a close account of my marathon training with a growing number of followers, enough that I would continue writing about my fitness journey after the marathon and beyond. This goal was not met. I was too busy last summer juggling jobs, too busy in the fall surfing from couch-to-couch. I also envisioned a marathon time under 4:30, or near to it; this goal was shattered after Mile 22 when my enflamed left knee and ultra tight right calf caused so much pain in my body, I could barely walk the last four miles. "When I reached the Bronx, I just lost it, " I said to one of my friends afterwards. "It's okay," she said. "The Bronx has that effect on people, with or without a marathon." This made me laugh. It is not the end of the world that I didn't reach my goal, and this is not the end of this site. I will keep writing just as I will keep running. There is no shame in starting over.
So stay tuned, because more good things are on the way!